Meltdown

You were okay.

You were okay but you see something that throws your equilibrium away.

You see something that throws your equilibrium away and you try to control your temper.

You try to control your temper and try to convince yourself that you have no right to be angry.

You try to convince yourself that you have no right to be angry but the anger still bubbles inside you and you try to conceal it.

You try to conceal it but then you also want to talk about it but you’re tired of people undermining your issues.

You try to control your temper again and then something happens.

Usually you let it go and don’t make a fuss about it.

But then you just blow your fuse and you rage at the simplest things.

And you drink in your rage, you drown in it. There seems to be no holding back any longer.