Metaphysics

I believe that souls are reborn. (Or maybe Cloud Atlas has inception-ized my brain.)

Who could I've been in my past life? Maybe I was a jester at King Henry VIII's court. I may have been a surfer dude in Hawaii. Or a professor of music in some esteemed school halfway around the globe.

Who am I now? I'm not so sure, but if we define personality by what people do, then I guess, I am a senior media planner (pinay media planner, naks) in a media agency. Funny how it sounds so generic, like it could be anyone. It doesn't quite answer the question. If we define ourselves by the job we do, it feels like we know so little of ourselves we let our circumstances define who we are. But then, how does one define personality? But I digress. This is not the point of this post.

I would be somebody else the next time my soul is reborn. I could be somebody else now in a parallel universe for all I know. However, I will never know that I've been reborn. I can speculate that I've had a past life but I would not be able to recollect moments of that supposed past life. I guess that's why we say "You Only Live Once" nowadays. I believe in souls being reborn and in YOLO. Ironic, isn't it? Not quite.

In parallel universes I might've exist or still exist, past lives I might've lived through, but my here and now is well, here and now, right at this moment. I will never be more conscious that I am alive than I am right now. Flesh and blood, living and breathing at this moment. What I do now I won't be able to recall next time. So I say let's stop taking each moment for granted and start living.

The point of this post? Nothing, just trying to be profound for a change (and trying to eliminate writer's block in the process). ;)

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Uyyy nakaka-relate...

Lover to Lover by Florence + The Machine

I’ve been losin' sleep,
I’ve been keepin' myself awake,
I’ve been wandering the streets,
For days and days and days,

Oh if I’m row to row,
Back to back,
Lover to lover,
And black to red,

But I believe,
I believe

There’s no salvation for me now,
No space among the clouds,
And I’ve seen that I’m heading down,
But that’s alright,
That’s alright,
That’s alright..
That’s alright..

And I’ve been taking chances,
I’ve been setting myself up for the fall,
I’ve been keeping secrets,
From my heart and from and from my soul.

Going from row to row,
Back to back,
Lover to lover,
Black to red,

But I believe,
I believe
There’s no salvation for me now,
No space among the clouds,
And I’ve seen that I’m heading down,
But that’s alright,
That’s alright,
That’s alright!
That’s alright!

Row to row,
Back to back,
And lover to lover,
And black to red,
And row to row,
Back to back,
And lover to lover!

No space among the clouds…
And I feel I’m heading down…
But that’s alright,
That’s alright,
That’s alright!
That’s alright!
That’s alright!
That’s alright!

Row to row!
Back to back!
And lover to lover!
And black to red!
And row to row!
Back to back!
Lover to lover
To lover to lover
To lover to lover
To lover to lover
To lover to lover
To lover to lover…

No salvation for me now…
No salvation for me now…
No salvation for me now…
No salvation for me now…

Mope Monday

You were so sure you'd be okay. You'd be able to move forward.

So, why are you moping today? And, why does it feel like you're physically here but everything seems so dreamlike?

  

I love you, Sabado.

Schizotypal

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Good Love Stories Wanted

A little background on this post: a friend and I were talking about books last night. She happens to have a penchant for love stories and is looking for an interesting one. Being a nerd wannabe, I tried (operative word: tried) to recommend some books I’ve read and realized I was struggling and could only think of a handful of books. And, they’re not even straight out ‘romance’ novels. I was never the cheesy type, anyway.

Love daw makes the world go round. Somehow, though, I can’t seem to find a good love story in novels nowadays. Define ‘good’ you say. Good as in (1) the characters are individuals who are not highly dependent on each other; they have separate things going on (read: no Twilight, please), and (2) affection is expressed subtly yet the reader swoons even with the subtlety (declarations of crazy love on every page is unnecessary; again no Twilight and Nicholas Sparks). Examples, you say. Okay, here are non-nausea invoking literary couples:

• Marius and Cosette (Les Miserables)
• Claire Ann Abshire and Henry de Tamble (The Time Traveller's Wife): Okay, a friend told me this book turned her nearly diabetic. However, I found it delightful how Henry discovers each milestone of their story (i.e. how he and Claire met, why there's a scar on Claire's right side, etc.) I liked how events unfolded un-chronologically and I liked how, in some way or form, it's a coming-of-age story as much as it is a love story between Claire and Henry.
• Robbie and Cecilia (Atonement)
• Rob and Laura (High Fidelity): Classic Nick Hornby; a couple who has the same real-life problems you can relate to.
• Dr. Juvenal Urbino and Fermina Urbino (Love in the Time of Cholera): Sorry Florentino Ariza fans.
• Mikael Blomkvist and Lisbeth Salander (The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo): With Daniel Craig and Rooney Mara in mind heehee
• Fat Charlie and Daisy (Anansi Boys)
• Paul and Lexy (Dogs of Babel): heads-up this is a sad story
• Jubilo and Lucha (Swift as Desire)

Anyone you want to add to the list? :)