2014 Year-end Survey

    1) DRINKING BUDDY OF THE YEAR

    ??? Drink? What drink??! lol. 

2) LIFETIME SERVICE AWARD (longest friend/s)

Same answer as last year! (Hi Zan, Ivan, Nik, Yshio, Kim, Cris, Gandara, and Melai!)

3) NEWCOMER AWARD - COOLEST NEW FRIEND/s?

Panalo kapag kay Dia Manalo!

3) HIGH POINT OF THE YEAR?

September!!! I fell in love with Siem Reap. I wish I could go back. :) (Soundbite while walking along Pub Street: Ladeeeh, do you want Marijuana?? I give youuu.")

4)LOW POINT OF THE YEAR?

Maybe when we went to Bangkok and we were scammed and the tuk-tuk driver told us to f*ck off. 

5) BEST HOLIDAY?

My solo Singapore trip! Four days of walking and walking, getting lost, and enjoying my own company. And of course, the sunburn. :)

6) YOUR SONG FOR 2014?

Don't Look Back in Anger (Oasis)...HAHAHA...Well, 2014 was really a bad year.

7) MOVIE FOR 2014?

Maleficent--only because I watched it in SG (yes, I'm a social climber like that lol).

10) WHO DID YOU SPEND VALENTINE'S WITH AND WHERE?

I'm not sure hehe. For sure, it isn't memorable. :P

12) WHAT WERE YOU FOR HALLOWEEN?

Well, attendee ng Yule Ball. Harry Potter theme daw kasi e.

13) RESTAURANT OF THE YEAR?

BONCHON.

14) KISS OF THE YEAR?

Hershey's Kisses

15) BEST DECISION MADE THIS YEAR?

Forgive. But never forget. Because an elephant never forgets lol.

16) WHAT ARE YOUR PLANS FOR 2015?

Travel the world.

17) MOST STUPID IDEA WHEN DRUNK?

Kumain ng buhangin. Don't judge meeee!

18) TV SHOW/s OF THE YEAR?

Jane the Virgin FTW!

19) MOST LOYAL FRIEND(s)?

Aris, moon of my life, my best friend in the whole wide world. :*

20) BIGGEST CHANGE OF THE YEAR?

Pota, wala. Napakawalang kwents ng 2014 ko 'yo!

21) NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTION?

Eat more vegetables, read more books. Write more. Write pa more. Tama na Clash of Clans (weh?).

XI. I hate it when I see you (11/11/14)

I hate it when I see you

It makes me ache for something I can never touch

It gnaws at my bones and extinguishes warmth

It leaves my insides hollow and cold

And it aches

And aches

And longs for something to fill the void

A void that no one else but you can seal.

And so I promise

Not to seek you out anymore

Because I'm okay when I don't

But whenever I see you

I'm reminded of a place I can never go to

And I don't want this rabid thing inside my chest

Tormenting me with its angry beats

And eats me up until nothing's left.

X.

I had to get rid of

The parts of me that is you

And so I start with the crown on my head

Though the strands are barely the length of my little finger

Snip

And snip

And snip

Again

The debris of the fallen

Scattered on the floor

Little islands of love floating in remorse.

- "Hair cut", August 27 2014

IX.

“

If neurotic is wanting two mutually exclusive things at one and the same time, then I’m neurotic as hell. I’ll be flying back and forth between one mutually exclusive thing and another for the rest of my days.

Buddy put his hand on mine.

Let me fly with you.

”

—	- The Bell Jar, Sylvia Plath <3 nbsp="" p=""> :)

Sylvia

Slowly child
You don’t have to drink up
The dregs
You don’t have to swallow up
The bitterness
It’s okay to puke
Let it all out
The wrath in your bones, the fire in your stomach
Take a hot bath
And feel pure

Slowly child
Go about your day
Slow doesn't have to be boring
Slow doesn't have to be bland
Pick up a pen and take your time
The world will rush and push you
You just have to
Take little steps, slowly but sure

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30 minutes

That night I watched you as you slept. Not the whole night; just around 30 minutes. I resisted the urge to kiss you, by the way. I guess you didn't know that you held on to me, hugged me. I wanted to hug you back but I didn't. I knew that you were probably dreaming and that it wasn't me you were holding in your dreams.