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Danao Canyon Swing, November 2011

“I have lived my life according to this principle: If I’m afraid of it, then I must do it.”

—	Erica Jong

Old writing notebook

*Two days after my 25th birthday, Dec 2011

She turned 25 a couple of days ago. Gone were the days when birthdays seemed so special - a day you look forward to when you were just a little kid. She wasn't that young anymore and she knew it.

Somehow, "All the Love in the World" kept playing in her head and not for the first time that day, she asked herself if she was ready. She doesn't want to fall into the trap of thinking that she's ready to fall in love again when she's really not. It has been an obsessive thought lately. Something that she doesn't want to think about anymore. She knows that if she's indeed ready, she wouldn't have to ask herself that question anymore. She'll just know.

** January 26 2012
Sometimes I feel the my world shake. The slightest tremor sends anxiety to my already addled brain. It's as if my soul is moving parallel with the earth's core, sending slivers of alarm, alerting me that something inside might collapse.

(P.S. I don't know what this meant. Probably pretty sure I was stressed out during this time.)

***June 1 2012
When I went to Baguio last month, there was this pure moment of contentment that I felt. We were praying inside the Our Lady of Atonement Church and I just felt this utter sense of contentment: that there might be something still missing but I love my life as it is anyway. I've got everything I need.

(P.S. I need to be reminded of that feeling again :) )

2011 Year-end Survey

1)

1) DRINKING BUDDY OF THE YEAR?
The JnJ Team on numerous 12f Friday nights :)

2) LIFETIME SERVICE AWARD (longest friend/s)
My true blue high school clique.

3) NEWCOMER AWARD - COOLEST NEW FRIEND/s?
Teejay! I’ve known him for some time but only last year have we been close.

3) HIGH POINT OF THE YEAR?
Mt Pulag, 2922 masl lol

4)LOW POINT OF THE YEAR?
Honestly, when I found out that the office will be moving to Bonifacio Global City

5) BEST HOLIDAY?
Bohol adventure in november!

6) YOUR SONG FOR 2011?
This is an old song but it’s still my theme for 2011 – To the Moon and Back by Savage Garden

7) MOVIE FOR 2011?
Mission Impossible 4!

10) WHO DID YOU SPEND VALENTINE'S WITH AND WHERE?
I can’t remember haha, but probably I was by myself (though not lonely).

12) WHAT WERE YOU FOR HALLOWEEN?
Unfortunately, wasn’t able to attend the office Halloween party due to a meeting :( But supposedly, we were boy/girl scouts from the movie ‘Up’.

13) RESTAURANT OF THE YEAR?
Shakeys lol.

14) KISS OF THE YEAR?
None :)

15) BEST DECISION MADE THIS YEAR?
Learn mountaineering!

16) WHAT ARE YOUR PLANS FOR 2012?
Give everything my 100%. And write my bucket list.

17) MOST STUPID IDEA WHEN DRUNK?
Dance like there’s no tomorrow.

18) TV SHOW/s OF THE YEAR?
SECRET GARDEN!!!!!

19) MOST LOYAL FRIEND(s)?
ta-da! Ivan and Zan :)

20) BIGGEST CHANGE OF THE YEAR?
Did one thing that scares every so often.

21) NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTION?
Watch more movies!

Because a goal not written is only a wish...

Half of 2011 is almost done. Next thing we know it’s Christmas time again and then it’s 2012. My original plan this year was not to plan (and I think, I pretty much achieved that goal already haha). But then again, since I realized I wanted to hold on to something concrete to measure my progress, I decided to list down a few goals for the rest of the year:

• · Learn how to drive (even if I don’t have a car). This would be useful during barkada trips around the Metro.
• · Save at least 20,000 at the end of the year.
• · Learn how to make no-bake cake/ cheesecake pops.
• · Get a passport.
• · Make an SSS loan.
• · Go to the gym regularly on weekends.
• · Finish reading the whole Harry Potter series.
• · Learn how to swim.
• · Do not use my credit card for the next 3 months (hehe).
• · Go to Ilocos this year.
• · Throw a party on my 25^th birthday.

There. We’ll make an evaluation mid-December to check how many of these goals have been completed. Good luck!